I am that woman who gave them more chances than they probably deserved because when they showed me the bad parts of who they were, I chose to see the good in them regardless.
It did not mean that I was stupid, nor was I blinded by love!
I did it because I wanted them to know that my love for them had nothing to do with their performances in bed or of being a good man. My love for them had everything to do with a choice I had made that’s why I also walked away when I realised that their love were no longer reci-pro-cate.
How I kept moving on with new relationship is also by choice.
I am the woman who forgave their lies and I believed in their excuses because I UNDERSTAND things come up and sometimes plans don’t go accordingly.
There were many occasions when they did not stick to the plans we’ve planned. I never was mad but disappointment, “that I was”.
I have accepted the apologies they never said because I believed and still BELIEVE, they could become better individuals.
I kept trying because I believed in them but they could not see nor did they believe in me or us!
Even after we’ve parted, I am the woman they can still rely on for advice. I am the woman who will always be there for them even though they have not shown me that same respect and commitment.
I always give without expecting anything in return and I always tell people that I am the easiest woman you can have if you want me
Because it seems too easy to have me, they thought it is easy to win me back.
My undivided ATTENTION, I gave them even when they did not earn it.
I am the woman that loves unconditionally because I care more about building people and not using people to build myself up LIKE they used me to built themselves.
I love HARD and I get hurt from loving hard and because I have my heart on my sleeves, many assume I am insecure.
I use to stand in the mirror, analysing my flaws each time my relationship broke, trying to understand why these men never saw my values!
Unapologetically, yeah, I say what I feel, and what I feel is my TRUTH!
“Treat others, the way you want to be treated!” This has always been my principle from as long as I can remember!
No matter how tempting it got for me to give them a taste of their own medicine. I still choose not to be the one to treat them how they treat me!
But in the end of being a woman like me, I got used, I got taken advantage of, I got judged very harshly and treated unkindly even though I never deserved it.
Despite being given every reason to change to a wicked woman, I did not change.
Despite everything, I still believe good men exist, I am just yet to meet one.
I would not change the woman that I am. I will continue to be all the above and I have accepted the truth that even when I continue to get hurt, I will not change. Do you know why?
Because everyone I interact with changes through my example of kindness, compassion, unconditional love and understanding of circumstances and others.
Do not get me wrong, I always walk away when I have tried harder than I should have in the first place.
Even though my heart cries each time I had to give up on THEM but there is so much, that someone can do. When I have done all that I can do, and nothing changes, I walk away.
I am the woman who you did hurt when you were young and foolish But now that you are old, you regret me!
In your regret, you are thinking back how you hurt me and I never even hurt you back. Just walked away.
If only you did put aside your ego and mastered your courage to apologize to me! I would have easily forgiven you.
I would have welcomed you with open arms and a smile as if the time, distance and your mistakes were just nightmares.
But instead you are watching my every moves, on social media, because you have realised that I was the one who deserved better all this time.
But Now, we are OVER, do not regret anything, just love the person you are with BETTER!
A woman like me!❤